Teach Me Abandon: A Plea
Holy Spirit, I want to dwell with you every second of every day. But to do so, I know, requires complete abandon. Absolute abandon. Utter abandon. The thing is: I don't know how to do that. I'm too selfish, too stubborn, too hard-hearted. So, my plea, Spirit, is that you would teach me. Help me to think of you constantly. To see you around me. Feel you within me. Hear you about me. Sense you surrounding. Teach me to give everyone and everything wholly to you, including myself, that I might be empty and abandoned for you. This is my heart-mind's greatest desire. My soul yearns for this but, while the spirit is willing, the flesh is weak. So, I need you. I am desperate, God. Desperate for you. Every. Single. Second. That's what I long for God: every single second with you. So, I seek abandon in order to be awake, aware, and alive. Teach me, Spirit. In the name of the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. Amen.