Praying with Psalm 106

“…but they lusted exceedingly in the wilderness, and tested God in the desert.”

-Psalm 106:14 When the well dries up will I praise Your name? When my thirst is too much to bear will I surrender all to You? You expose our deep attachments in the desert seasons of our lives not that we might suffer needlessly, but that the parasites of addiction, fear, and anxiety might be exposed, and exorcised from within. Lust is greed, greed is desire gone mad, desire gone mad is despairing that there is any hope in You at all, a core conviction that if life is to be good, pleasurable, even tolerable, I must make it work. I must take the reins, for if God is here, He has abandoned me. But You never leave a prisoner in chains, You never leave a slave in their burdens, and You never leave the broken heart broken. If You lead me in the desert, let me rejoice that Your salvation is nigh, a rescue from every compulsion and addiction, a sign of Your restoration, a sign of Your glory. Amen.